So , I have been thinking alot today about yesterday's events.

Here is my take on what has happened.  WarEagle went to Cali on a business trip, I dropped him off at the rentacar place at 5 am and a little later he texted me saying that his friend *** had decided to go to.

But now that I have really thought about this ... for the last week or so he has stressed he needed a bigger car .. that he needed something "roomy" -- ok ...

I think that he has planned for *** to go for awhile - he just never told me . In fact I think that he did tell the truth in the fact that she finalized her decision to go yesterday.

But here is the thing.

I do not like sneaky shit. I  lived with that already. It causes distrust... and right now I am not feeling to trusting . I have been thinking whether or not this relationship is as important to him as it is to me.   We had made a commitment to be exclusive.

But I had made a commitment to be exclusive in my marriage... there was sneaky shit there too.

Do I think that WarEagle is cheating?

No not really... but the fact that he feels the need to lie to me to avoid questions nad panic or fear on my part .. really upsets me. Yes he finally came clean when *** decided to go. But he should've let me know what was in the works in the first place.

Right now ... I am not happy .

Things like this put me in very dark places.