I have not really felt much like writing.

Honestly, I haven't felt like doing much of anything. I have been going through a series of knee injections. My knee hurts all of the fucking time. So the Doctor decided to do synvasc. I am noticing a difference. My knee doesn't pop all the time , and it doesn't hurt the way it did.  So ... SCORE!

I had a pretty good Christmas. My parents drove in from New Mexico and it was really good to see them.  I always seem to suffer a little situational depression at the holidays . That with missing my stepkids and such.  I miss having a family and doing all the things that families do .

I have made a few decisions for my life and we will see how it goes. One is I am giving up soda. I don't feel very good and I will miss you Dr. Pepper but this is somthing that HAS to be done.  I also have decided to take a time out. A time out for relationships . I am tired of looking and I am wanting something a little closer to normal.. even if I am .. not normal.  I am not even sure that makes any sense.

I have met someone who makes me laugh alot and we are seeing where it goes. He is pretty normal

I have not had a lot of internet time with my connection at home so I have really just kind of spent a lot of time being introspective. Trying to figure some shit out .  I have so much going on in my life.. that the quiet is time that I need. I am doing some redecorating in my house... and hanging with my dogs.