I make BAD decisions when I am hurt.

Bad choices even.

I purposely do things I know that I shouldn't because I feel this innate sense to self harm.

It is like punishing myself for failing, and I find I fail alot. My human-ness knows know bounds. knows NO limits. I make mistakes daily.

I find also that I self -punish when being punished. Like the punishment being dished out isn't enough to purge the pain of being imperfect.

Punish me .. With your silence.

Punish me .. with your hateful words.. and lack of care.

It makes no difference.

Punish me .. Let me take the blame.

Punish me - The failure is mine.

It still makes no difference.

Love given... Love taken ...Love lost...

Punish me.

Punish me - This is not new to me

Punish me -