Feeling a little antsy...

Kind of the calm before I freak the fuck out.

Not sure why I am having bad feelings... but feel a bad omen on the way. 

Alot has been going on .. and I am really tired. I am not sure I ever get enough sleep, which was evident on Friday because I slept the whole day.

I woke up at like 10 am and then went back to bed at noon... and slept til five.

Then WarEagle and I went to the Blues Traveler concert.

It was amazing.

But it was also hot and outside and I got bit by a bunch of flying things..

My patience level is like NIL.

I would like to pause in the middle of this post to say....

:::Mom if you are still reading my blog STOP NOW::: 

It drives me crazy that you are snooping here. If I wanted you to know I would talk to you about it.

Weird how my mom finding me on the INTERNET and reading me is an invasion of my privacy .. but with my current situation .. I relish any privacy I get.

EX HUSBAND RANT--

Thank you fucker for making it difficult to trust any human being especially any human beings with a penis.

Thank you for my inane feelings of insecurity...

and Thank you for teaching me what love isn't.

Love is not mean...

It is not abusive...

It is not jealous...

or vindictive...

it does not cheat

or lie

or create pain.

Love is NOT hateful words

There is no vanity in love but...

Love has a humble and gentle spirit.

Love wants better for your other than yourself.

Love desires peace

and harmony

it is quiet moments... and loud laughter.

most of all... love is contentment of knowing

that no matter how you fall

or fail...

love will pick you up...

when you can not do for yourself...

love will carry you

when you are wounded

love will kiss each tear

when you are afraid

love will surround you and protect you.

Love never fails ...

It is there when you don't feel it.

It is there when everyone else... isn't.

Love .. real love is unconditional and has no gray areas.

Love celebrates truth....

When the world, crumbles at your feet.

Love Remains...