I hope that you have had a splendid Christmas.

I have had a Christmas.

Two days before , I went to the doctor to have an iud put in . I don't plan for any children ... and I know wareagle doesn't want any.

 The miscarriage was very hard last year .. don't wan t to go through that again. While I was there I found out the reason my pregnancies do not  get past a certain point.

Apparently my cervix is upside down and uterus inverted.

so I am defective and my body is the reason my babies were never born. laying to rest the age old suspicion that it was me ...

and it was.

broke one cell phone and lost another ... so phoneless. sheesh who knew it was so freaking nerve wracking.

Got some lovely bras and panties for christmas.

my sister got me a coach coin purse .

wareagle had gotten me a dragonfly pendant necklace.

i had been hoping for a promise ring. but I don't think he has me on the agenda for mrs. wareagle.

why buy the cow when you can milk it for free....

or

why buy the whole freakin popsicle truck when the ice cream is free...

Talked to the doctor about my worsening depression. She thinks it is situational upon my menstrual cycle...

so we revert back to my uterus that I hate with every breath I take.

Have been terribly sad ... and I can't seem to pull out of the pit.

More and More stress with living with my parents ... i am forty plus years old and it just feels awful to have to live here.

i guess that things are what they are...

thank you to those of you who read me ... i kind of feel as tho I am screaming into the wind.

I hope that you had a magical merry christmas.. and that your new year is adventurous and full of love...

be well my friends.