Hello friends and foes....

and Happy BELATED St. Paddy's day from a lass of Irish heritage!

Well... apparently .. UNLV lost in the first round... they will never return to the way they were when I was in college... Man I miss Greg Anthony and Stacey Augamon. They were super sweet guys!

Oh well... not a lot of love for UNLV since Tark left.

I miss that towel chewin coach!!!!

WarEagle has been going on job interviews out of town and we are waiting to see which is the best offer ...

So I could end up anywhere who knows.

I picked him up at the airport the other night and we had dinner at Raisin' Cane's where the chicken is kicken and the sauce is boss.  We were talking about the job offer that is on the table in San Francisco.  It looks like a good job but it concerns me ... why? cost of living in the area is beyond .... our pocketbooks.  I kept pressing to see what they were offering that sort of thing and he was avoiding the answers . So I just looked at him and asked... "have you changed your mind about us? Do you want to move without me"

my stomach just dropped and I was trying not to cry... because deep inside I STILL have that fear of being left... of being rejected ... or hurt.  He looked at me kind of shocked and said

"NO"  then he went on to explain the offer and it was less than what we were hoping for.

I just shook my head ... because I don't know how long it will take to get a job. worry spread over me ... i won't lie.. how coould I go if we can't afford to live?

He grabbed my hands and said "I guess we will have to ..." and he started singing "livin on love ... buyin time ... without somebody nothing ain't worth a dime"

I started crying... because it answered all of my unanswered questions that continually plague me.

I remember 3 years ago ... freshly divorced... and I was in the store .. and Alan Jackson came on the overhead singing Livin on Love ... I had cried because at the time I thought love was really a farse. A lie. I didn't think I could ever give my heart to someone again.

But here comes this man .... and I don't understand how ... life has changed so much.

I gave him my heart... the bruised and broken one.

and in his protection ... it has healed.

There is the occasional hiccup where I don't know where the road is leading or where he is taking me ...

But ...the adventure is in the journey.

We were laying in bed the other night ... and kissing.

I love the way he kisses me... how they seem to touch every part of me , and that my heart still flutters when he touches me.

Almost 2 years now...

We get along so good... It is hard to understand the normalcy of it all.

I would like to say we are homebodies.. but we actual get out and do alot. But we also sit home and hold hands and enjoy loving each other.

By that I mean we just like being in the other's presence ...

and we laugh... alot.

We are hoping to move to a place with pro sports teams... one of the locations is Kansas City?

Can I be a chiefs fan?

yeah... except for when they play the cowboys...

if San Francisco pans out ... this girl is not a Raiders fan but she will root the forty-whiners if she has too.. and only when she is not rooting the cowboys.

We are still hoping for locations with horses.

Keep your fingers crossed.

o.O I will have to add some photos from disney.

Things are so amazing right now. I can't help but just sit back and think ... WOW...

I guess you have to live the bad to really recognize the beautiful.

and THIS life is beautiful!

I am cut free for four months.

That is a really good thing. I am trying to use words not wounds.

It has been old home week this week on top of everything else. Talking to old friends even ones I have not seen since I was 19. I talked to papi today. we talked for an hour. I told him I missed his hobbit feet. I really think God put him in my life for a reason. We went through our divorces at the same time .We are truly good friends and love each other very much.

My ex accused me of having an affair with him...

It never happened .. physically.

But emotionally?

yeah it did.

He listened to me.. prayed with me ... comforted me... laughed with me.

we were both served with divorce papers the same day...

and we both cried on the phone with each other .

He was ... my constant.

I have missed him tremendously as our lives have taken different paths... but I am forever grateful for the role he has had in my life.

I talked with my friend Jewel today .. she has alot going on so ... it is hard to keep in touch with her schedule.It was good to catch up with her ... and I love her to pieces.

It has been a very full day ...

While I am here .. could ya'll please send your prayers and good thoughts my Grandaddy's way?

He has cancer.  It started with a spot on his lung ..He is not a smoker .. but got it from skin cancer that started going into organs .. he had radiation treatment... but they have recently found a lesion on his brain.. They did a gamma knife procedure and have him on steroids to keep his brain from swelling.

It is the beginning of the end. He is getting weaker and weaker and ... his motor skills have decreased alot.

It is very hard to watch his condition continue to go downhill.

I will focus on the good times.. and remember that I have been very lucky to have him in my life for 40 years.

I am off for now... dinner with WarEagle and movies tonite...

hope all is well in each of your worlds...

Take Care... xoxoxoxoxo