I am not sure why people think that I have stupid written on my face...  Or that I would take joy in lying to someone. I wouldn't . More than frustrated right now with my lack of understanding of my ex bf wanting to hang out .. being warm one moment and cold the next. Or why he thinks that I think that he is not seeing women.  We are broken up .. I can't say anything about it. AND it isn't like I am not going to date other men while he figures out exactly what he wants with me. I told him that I need him to be 100 percent truthful with me ... otherwise we would not be able to talk any more. Yet I still feel that sometimes he is less than honest.  

It also bugs me someone sent me a question asking WHY I lie? Seriously? 

A few things that are bothering me... that a friend would actually think I would be coming on to their girlfriend.  I do flirt on Twitter and on my blog... but I would NEVER in all seriousness make a sexual advance of any kind at someone who was taken. I have been cheated on. Why would I do that to someone else? Also why would I want to date someone who would cheat on their other to be with me. That seems like a mistake ... I mean if they cheat on them .. they will cheat on me.  I say screw that I am looking for something special.  That and I am not completely over an ex boyfriend ... who has no idea why he wants to be in my life ... but is.

Things that are making me smile right now... I got some gifts in the mail . A huge thank you to whoever you are that sent me items from my fantasy Christmas list. I am completely humbled. I received the movie the Secretary, - I also received a riding crop and I also got a foot therapy wrap . So I can ice my ankle without pain. OR use it for heat. This has made an immense difference in my ankles swelling .. it is actually a almost normal size.

I keep hoping for some kind of normalcy in my life. You know normal .. the kind of normal my grandparents had. A forever love ... growing old holding hands... I am growing old and my hands are empty.  Which leads me to another new development. I now have a roommate She moved in last week. We are still trying to get the house situated . My parents will be here this week for Christmas and the last thing I need is for my mom to tell me what a crappy housekeeper I am ... right?

I also need to get my ass moving and paint those ornaments and get my holiday baking done. I will post pictures don't worry. I am hoping also that I can entertain some friends over the holiday. We will see. Hopefully if this bladder infection thingie and my foot thingie go away... I will be jetting right along