I am thinking that I really love my mom but she really is kind of like barbed wire. One of the things that drives me nucking futs is the fact that i am renting her home. She feels that she has the right to go through my things... question me ... on various things.

Case in point, is I have gotten some gifts in the mail, from my fantasy Christmas list . She immediately thinks I have actually pushed people to get me gifts... That was not the intention of my fantasy Christmas list ... I have done one for the last 8 years... I am unbelievably honored that someone would even think to send me a gift. Yet she thinks I am doing something bad or immoral and that is why people have sent me gifts.  

She also goes through my drawers .. through my things ... I have NO privacy and when I finally told her today .. "It is really NONE of your business" she through a fit ... yelled at me ... made some comment about me disowning her ... and if I disown her she can disown me ... and if that is the case she can raise my rent and whatever else her rant was about.  

My mom is a great lady... however she has the same genetic disposition that the rest of my family suffered from and it is called "CONTROL"  From my great grandparents on down... everyone thinks that meddling... or pushing .. or fixing your problem or telling you exactly how you should live your life.. or raise your kids... or mow your lawn ... or plow your field ... or do your dishes... or cook your food ... is ok.  Forget that everyone is an individual and they have their OWN ways of doing things... or that you have a way of dealing with your life ... in a said blog which I have told her to NOT read. She can not stand boundaries and neither could anyone else in our family.  

She is wanting to know more about what is going on with me and WarEagle.. and I don't even know what to say. I am keeping this kind of private right now because I don't know how to navigate with him. I don't know what it is we are doing. If we are dating or if we are just friends... or what our status is. What I do know is I missed him. That I am enjoying spending time with him. I am grateful for his help with my foot . For his company, and spending time with me. I had fun with him on New Years eve... I am just taking it one day at a time , and I am doing my best to not take it forgranted and just see it for what it is. Right now.  He has been amazingly open. Has been sharing quite a bit... and has not tried to set my bullshit-o-meter off. I guess it is what it is...  Other than that it has been uneventful... how is everyone doing on their resolutions?